"Life's made up of sadness, everyday, every minute, every second of your life.
If you felt the slight happiness on rarest occasion, it is just a bestow."

Another day, full of downs. Humans, the art of being able to work together peacefully, are so hard to master. There are a certain extent which I can tolerate of things. I am not saint, I am just a human, just like everyone of you out there. I got my temper, I am not someone whom people can don't respect or being treat like a dirt. Mood swing, just comes and goes. At that time, I ranted, I complained, I became a whining person whom everyone is talking behind my back. Some does understand what I meant actually, but some of them just don't. I just want to vent my anger, that's bad of me huh? Maybe I am just too harsh with my words? Words are the deadliest weapon on the earth, a lesson learnt today for me.
But for god sake, say whatever you want, and stop putting words in my mouth. =)

Hahaahaahahaahaa, another day passed.
Just some advice to people who want to enjoy the ease of life,
don't fugging ask others to run errand for you!

Hurt---

Seems like it was yesterday when I saw your face
You told me how proud you were, but I walked away
If only I knew what I know today
Ooh, ooh

I would hold you in my arms
I would take the pain away
Thank you for all you've done
Forgive all your mistakes
There's nothing I wouldn't do
To hear your voice again
Sometimes I wanna call you
But I know you won't be there

Ohh I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself by hurting you

Some days I feel broke inside but I won't admit
Sometimes I just wanna hide 'cause it's you I miss
And it's so hard to say goodbye
When it comes to this, oooh

Would you tell me I was wrong?
Would you help me understand?
Are you looking down upon me?
Are you proud of who I am?

There's nothing I wouldn't do
To have just one more chance
To look into your eyes
And see you looking back

Ohh I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself, ohh

If I had just one more day
I would tell you how much that I've missed you
Since you've been away
Ooh, it's dangerous
It's so out of line
To try and turn back time

I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself by hurting you

Wondering, if that I choosen to be reluctant to say anything was the wrong move? I thought the more I said, the worst the situation will turn out to be, so I choose to be the quiet one, but in the end, the things that those suspecting people said behind me, seems to make the story become more and more bizarre and horrid, which totally differ from the truth. The truth is I don't even know it myself. So how am I going to tell you all and answer all your fugging irritating questions? Stop bugging me will you all? That's just super minor part and parcel of life, why do you all treating it so seriously? Don't seem that you spend that effort to find out that answer in your studies. Lol. The least I would want is those who care for me to be worry about me or whatever, but in the end they still seems to sense it? Why is that so? I joke around, chat as usual, but still they sensed it. I felt bad to made people whom cared for me to be sad or worry about me, have been trying my best to cover all up, but maybe I failed badly. They aren't exactly happy or cheerful themselves, I believed everyone have their own emotions, and I felt so bloody bad to even bothered them, I just sucks. So sucks. Ah, another sad day passed by, but ended by a pleasant before-the-bed-chat. Thanks to you. =)